New Start?

Truthfully... I don't know what to say, or what to do... If one could easily grab the heart in one's hands and ask it: "tell me, am I supposed to do something?", or maybe be able to see it's real intentions... maybe life would be easier to deal with... First time I saw him, i didn't really give him much thought. Second time i saw him, i freaked out and pretty much ignored him... the third time i saw him i simply stared at him... the fourth time was just like the third time... the fifth time I actually got to talk to him... he came to talk to me XD it felt like life was wonderful... i kept on thinking: "he could've chosen anybody else, yet he choose me XD", plus, he was now sitting next to me in class... could life be more perfect? sixth time, he talked to me again... he asked a classmate what i had told him(my classmate)... i was fascinated... he seemed to care at least a little of what i thought or said... but... maybe they're all just lame excuses? Truthfully, having crushes is far more amusing than falling in love... you feel stupid all the time, you feel like laughing at yourself by ur sudden surges of happiness by merely catching a glimpse of the person your interested in... the carefree-ness of it all is simply marvelous... Yet the desire of returning, or no, i'm mistaken, the desire of creating a perfect world, an even more perfect world than before, is simply breathtaking and intriguing.... Will it work? I hope it will.... It's all so different now... i guess the new start is really coming along =P