A paper heart and paper wings

What is this...? La verdad... no entiendo... fake a smile, pretend all is fine, play along with the crowd, lets all take part of this life created by mere lies... But why? Why do we let ourselves fall down so low, let go of all that truthfully matters and slip away, slowly at first, and gaining speed by the second? I repeat... i do not understand... We are so light in our souls at first, just like paper, we may take steps in water and still manage to float, yet as soon as we find ourselves taking part of this society, suddenly we look around us, and we are sinking into a pool of blue, dark blue, turning black every time we fall deeper and deeper, and all that remains is... nothing, we are no longer in the position to swim back up to the surface. We are just straight down lost, nowhere to run to... What happened with our paper hearts and paper wings? What happened to that innocence that we all possessed at first.... Lets go back to those days of paper hearts and paper wings, for even though they are delicate and easily broken, maybe... maybe they may also be easy to fix... for sure it is easier to make another paper heart than it is to get another actual heart... it is far easier to dream of flying and peace... than it is to actually be able to commit the act... so even though there the paper is torn in our hearts, we can still take tape and fix it, slowly and carefully and ensure ourselves to the peace of having it back together, almost in its original state... or maybe that is the perfect excuse to escape a reality in which we are aware that with a real heart, this burns and pains will never be erased and remain there, marked forever...

Onigiri!

Tohru Honda =P one of the cutest anime girls there exists in the whole world XD from the series Fruits Basket =P anyways.. thats besides the point =P um right... So yea XD I'm really happy today, though its sort of odd as well... cuz heh... ^-^U i can't help but to think that it's sorta stupid how the guy I used to believe was the best of all my best friends... was so... boring ñ_n... At first when we started talking again (the same guy I mentioned before, antonio =P but i decided I'd call him TJ from now on, so TJ it is) I was glad, cuz I thought, well, at least I'll be able to fix everything and we'll go back to normal but... well after today's conversation (which btw, I found extremely pointless, and I know that because... I don't remember much of it =P so it wasn't something of utmost importance I believe) I just don't really feel like fixing it... I moved on quite quicker than I expected XD I can give myself that, I apparently have excellent "forgetting the importance of guys" skills... cuz it only took me... 2 weeks perhaps?? maybe less... Not to be mean or anything, he's not a bad person or anything.. it's just =P it's not the same =P and it probably won't ever be and he obviously won't tell me what in the world is going on =P sooo why waste my time with that? =P might as well do what I was planning to do in the first place, simply forget him =P and plus, with friends like mine =P it'll be far easier n_n Anyways, I saw this movie, Stardust, today. It was pretty cool, I liked it, even though it was sorta cheesy. It has two basic "problems" so to say. One, is the fact of the future heir of this magical kingdom, the other is the main character's (Tristan's) quest to bring a star back to this girl he's in love with (Victoria). Turns out though, that this star has a human form, and yet he still was planning to bring her to Victoria anyways (which I thought was actually sorta funny, cuz jajaja what better way to convince a girl that you love her than bringing to her another girl and claiming she's a star??? jajajaja totally smooth *roll* as if =P) anyways, since this girl (Yvaine) is a star, there are these witches (come on, how would this be a magical story without witches =P?) who want her heart, because, apparently, a stars heart brings youth (old witches who wanted more youth) The whole point is, that they end doing this whole quest trying to reach the village called the wall (Yvaine and Tristan) and in the middle of it all, they fall in love, so its a love story (but of course there's this prince who wants to have the star's heart so he can have eternal youth, and without the pendant in Yvaine's neck [this pendant she had was what would mark who would be the future king you see] he couldn't become king, plus the witch who only wants her youth) eventually Tristan and Yvaine tell each other that they love the other (which was funny as well jajaja cuz there was this point in which Tristan was turned into a mouse and Yvaine tells him this while he's a rat and she thinks he didn't understand her at all but he actually did =P) and well he ends up killing the witches and becoming the king (cuz he was from the royal bloodline =P and then, they both become stars (ok yea... I'm starting to get lazy) its weird, but its nice anyways =P ok that's about all I have to say, se despide MeliRukia de la sociedad de las almas (jiji)

But the question is... what is a Mahna Mahna???

El video de Mahna Mahna.. XD que lo pude encontrar finalmente con la gran ayuda de DavidChad XD me encantan esos bichitos rosa y el de Mahna Mahna, gente, ese sinceramente, es el mejor video del mundo entero XD
en fin.. ah si =P hoy finalmente, pude terminar mi INSOPORTABLE proyecto de ingles... lo que lo tornaba mas insoportable creo, era el personaje principal, Holden, que era INCREIBLEMENTE parecido a antonio... osea, quién rayos quiere leer un libro de alguién que era el ex-mejor amigo y que, en la opinion de uno, lo odia??
Fue terriblemente raro.. hoy hable con el (decidió desbloquearme, cuando supe, lo primero que pense fue: "si esto es lo que el llama un acto de caridad, que siga soñando, xq no lo quiero aceptar") y puedo claramente decir, que con quién hable... si era antonio, pero el mismo chico rudo que se hace pasar x quién es todo buenaso y rebelde *roll*. Una pregunta, a los que lean esto.. si uno llega a conocer a alguien dem bien, y después esa persona lo echa de la vida de uno, solo para eventualmente admitirlo de nuevo pero actuando diferente, la amistad se mantiene? Por el momento no lo se... de hecho =P explique lo que sentia a Chad con una metafora (aunque bastante extraña, pienso yo, pero DavidChad tiene esa mente freak al igual que yo XD jajajaja), le dije lo siguente:
la mente de el tiene dos niveles, el primer nivel, es el q el se muestra ante la mayoria, chico rudo, "divertido", rebelde, "buena gente", entre otras cosas.. pero hay unas escaleras, a un segundo nivel, son escaleras invisibles, casi nunk se ven, y los que las ven, son EXAGERADAMENTE pocos, y bueno, yo he logrado subir esas escaleras, xq casi siempre desde q lo conocí "de nuevo" las puedo ver, y bno, en realidad, solo tuve q subirlas una vez, xq entre al segundo nivel sin problema, pero para entrar al segundo nivel, hay una puerta bastante complicada, como una puerta del futuro XD y es una puerta que solo funciona si uno pone la mano y si la mente de esa esa persona, x dentro lo identifica a uno como alguién que esta en el sistema de la puerta, y lo deja entrar a uno, y como dije, yo entre con bastante facilidad, no me costo mucho, y bueno, yo me quede ahi, todo el tiempo, acompañando a la persona del segundo nivel, pero vino un día, no estoy segura cuando, que la persona del segundo nivel, desaparecio, o mas bien, ya no lo podia ver, y el, siendo invisible y todo me echo, y caí x cada una de las escaleras y termine casi a la salida del primer nivel y todo, el problema es, que bueno, ya pude avanzar de nuevo al primer nivel, mas hacia el centro, ya no tan cerca de la salida, y yo aun puedo ver las escaleras (supongo q se podría decir q desde la primera vez que uno ve esas escaleras, sabe que estan ahi) y hoy, las subí, pero tengo dos problemas, la primera vez q puse la mano, el sistema me rechazó, y ahora tengo miedo d poner la mano de nuevo pero aun asi estoy intentandolo de a pocos pero bastante insegura... jaja no se si esto hace sentido =P
El punto es que... no se... es bastante extraño... pero bno n_n ni modo, el punto es que si el no quiere, está bien, me abandonó una vez, y no está lo suficientemente cerca para que me pueda lastimar de nuevo =P d x si =P tengo amigos como Romano y DavidChad al igual que Dome y Estefanía, y con amigos como ellos =P el mundo sigue de colores, se despide de la sociedad de las almas,
MeliRukia/M/Meli/Mel, pero antes, el video de Mahna Mahna: